I am so tired. A week of bad sleeping on the part of Piran plus a stinking cold for me has sucked all of my energy and completely destroyed any creativity too.
I am stuck in a panic rut too. Like I feel that there is so much to do that I am incapable of working out what needs to be done, let alone actually start. I get paralysed, unable to start anything. Scared of being overwhelmed. There is so much I have to do, and as usual no time to do anything that I would LIKE to do.
Being ill was hard, the first time since becoming a Mum and although I used to try and get on with things regardless I did used to be able to get a decent night of sleep, something that has been severely lacking in these parts recently. Added to that Mr C is working his butt off and my MIL is also poorly and her brother is in hospital to my usual baby free time is not possible at the moment. It was only 4 hours a week but I am seriously missing those hours.
I don't have time to blog, and I am seriously lacking in inspiration right now. I am fed up of the look of my blog too. Perhaps a revamp is due in the New Year? I have no idea where to start mind you, and not sure I can find the time either! I will let the idea perculate at the back of my mind for a while.
Christmas is nearly sorted which is a relief, although I have to go on a Christmas card writing mission this evening. I know I will feel a bit better once I have got most of that done. Then I will have to start thinking about what to pack to go back down to Cornwall. At least it is a brief visit so we should be okay with the bare minimum.
On Saturday I am going to a one day creative writing course. So that is one thing I get to do for me, while Mr C is in charge of the baby. I am looking forward to it but also scared silly. I hope I get time to do Josie's Writing Workshop this week, I was gutted that I didn't have the energy this week.
Anyway, I hope that normal service will resume soon. I hope everyone had a lovely weekend.
Kelly
8 comments:
Make a list! Thats what I do when I feel like I don't know where to start. Just doing it makes me feel better. Put really small things on it too. That way you get to tick lots of them off and feel like you have achieved something. Just remember this lack of sleep thing will only be temporary and it will get better eventually. I know!! You are allowed to feel like this when you have a young baby. Its bloody hard work!! Well done for doing your creative writing course. Its great to do something for yourself. Let us know how it goes! x
Oh hun, you sound like you are feeling a bit overwhelmed. If it makes you feel any better, you are not alone! We all do, and often. Sew Scrumptious is right, a list is a good thing. And you have done that other most important thing which is to get some you time. Being a Mum is really really hard. you are doing such a great job. Don't worry about the blog, just enjoy it- it isn't supposed to be a chore. Big hugs. xxxxx
I always have a notepad, it takes the place of my brain which left during pregnancy with Mo, never to come back! I write everything of any importnace there, lists-daily/weekly/longterm goals. I find it helps?
But in utter honesty, do not give yourself such a hard time. You are doing great. xxx
I'll second and third the notebook idea. It can be very theraputic to get things out of your head onto paper, even thinking about what needs to get done etc.
Oh honey, it's tough isn't it?! If my boys didn't have an afternoon nap at the same time I wouldn't have any time to myself.
Good luck for the creative writing course, I hope you enjoy it - and the day off! My CW course has finished. I loved it. Just trying to persuade Andy that I need to do the intermediate course next year.
Take care x
Hope your feeling better soon!! xx
Lists, lists and more lists and be safe in the knowledge that it will all work out in the end. Glad to have found your blog xx Merry Christmas
definately make a list. Also set yourself some things to look forward to in reqard. Dont have to be anyhting huge, even just a relaxing bath or a home pedicure/manicure etc to cheer you up after doing all your chores.
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